Trading a Life of Work for a Life 360º
If you were among the early subscribers to this space you were given a gift…
…it might not have seemed like that, but you were given the gift of seeing and possibly feeling how absolutely incoherent the Creative Process can be.
Especially in the beginning.
In the beginning of creating something new, it is a full on series of ‘monets’, which, in the movie Clueless, is how Cher (Alicia Silverstone) describes a classmate who has undergone plastic surgery on her nose; nice from a distance but a bit of a mess when you get up close.
Not sure how Mr. Monet would feel about that but, nonetheless, it’s a beautiful analogy for the Creative Process.
The Creative Process looks one way from a distance and it is something entirely different when you get up close and personal with it.
On the surface or, from a distance, the Creative Process looks so exciting — romantic even — but once you get inside of it, well, it’s a lot what I imagine being inside a bag of cats feels like.
As usual, I can only say this because I’ve lived this.
Had I known just how exquisitely frustrating, joyously disappointing, excruciatingly expansive the process was going to be, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have made the leap.
It’s also part of the reason I’m reluctant to share too much of my experience, because there is a reason we don’t get to see the whole game plan for our lives from beginning to end.
If we did we would NEVER get out of the womb.
But, last month I mentioned that while I was working with my Spirit Team, they impressed upon me that this space need to be refined…in very kind and loving words they told me it was becoming a full on Monet.
And, they provided some much needed clarity by stating,
— Share your story | Show your steps.
— Show what it looks/ed like, in your experience.
— Show how you shifted; the work, the job, the career, the business to experience more fully, the Life, in 360º.
— Show your tipping points and turning points and some of the bits in the middle where you got stuck.
Now, I’m certain they’ll share more wisdom and guidance when I need it but that is what’s shaping the shift that’s going to happen this month.
I’m shifting away from focusing so much on the shit-show that is the Marketing, Media and Messaging in order to shifting toward ‘what do we do about it’ (IE: the shit show), which ironically, will probably (at times) lead me back to the Three Ms because,
Until you SEE it…you can’t SHIFT it.
For right now, the Marketing, Media and Messages are playing a monumental role in keeping our minds locked in fear, which prevents us from shifting awareness into conscious, empowered actions.
Who we are is what we have to offer.
So it will be helpful to clarify a couple of things, to know if you’re going to resonate with this directional shift:
1 ) You are AWARE: — You are seeing it, all of it or a large enough portion of said ‘shit-show’ that your eyes are now more ‘wide-open’ than glued shut
3) You are increasingly more CONSCIOUS: — You see it and you are probably wrestling with, ‘yeah, but what do I do about it, I’m one person!’ but that is what you’re starting to ask your Higher Self.
3) You want to feel EMPOWERED: — You want to access the real power of being coherent and conscious about how you are going to bring about REAL change; change that has lasting benefit & impact and…
…you probably don’t have the first clue where to begin.
Which of course, is GREAT NEWS!
Because let’s rewind to 2012.
When I didn’t have the first (or second, or third…) clue either!
Also, I was only marginally ‘aware’ and fractionally ‘conscious’.
Who we are — aware, conscious, empowered — is what we have to offer this world, in order to create the change(s) we want to see.
So, what was I then?
— First, I was not just a little bit bitchy; I hated my business life and the work I was doing (though I paradoxically, still really liked most of the people), I was going backward in career achievements, oh! right and I was part owner in the company — so if you think the problem is that you’re one of the ‘lowly plebs’, think again.
— Second, I was burning out; I was working 16 hours a day, six days a week (doing what? read #1 again) and my Mind was communicating loud and clear through my body. I was sick, and tired. Ha! I guess I really was sick and tired.
(I can only laugh about it now because I’ve taken the time to heal…please know I’m not making fun of where I was at the time OR where you might be right now.)
— Third, I was breaking down; I had zero bandwidth to entertain ‘more’ and I had even less Mind Space to ‘strategically’ plan my way out of that particular shit show.
In other words, I had MASTERFULLY MANIFESTED a ‘life of work’ and I wanted more but I had zero clue where to begin, which made me dangerous and foolish, at times.
I wanted MORE than being cranky all the time, more than burning out and breaking down and more than a life characterized working ALL THE TIME and watching my overall health, spirituality, relationships, and dare I say ‘fun’, diminish daily!
So what did I do?
— Well, first I sold my share in the company, gave up “benefits” of being a co-owner (whatever those were) and I moved into a part-time role, doing similar things for the same company.
It’s probably worth stating that there is a reason people tell you rip the bandaid off when you’re breaking up with someone…it’s because it’s pure torture to continue to see the person that has broken your heart.
— In some ways, my heart had been broken. I had worked for 15 years building my career within the company. I poured my ‘best years’ into the goals and dreams we had collectively shared and I had loved those 15 years (mostly). But, in the span of two years, things changed. I changed. They changed. And, there was no way for me to go forward without letting go.
— So, I made one decision, which led to a million other decisions, that have allowed me to trade a life of work — one degree at a time — for more of a Life 360º. And, I continually traded the stereotypes, the stigmas, the rules and the game of working solely for the business, for more beyond.
It is VITAL that you read this and understand that I am not providing advice, counsel, direction or telling any of you what to do; I’m sharing what I did.
It might cause you to reflect on what is right for you.
It might cause you to consider if I have been down rabbit holes that you can safely avoid.
It may cause you to see faster ways to progress and manifest more of your ‘big picture vision’.
My causes. My Effects. And, that’s it.
I’ve done plenty of reflection in the last decade and what I can say is this.
Sure, there are choices I regret, decisions I would make differently and there are things I wished I could have done better (that’s when you’ll see me write to my Past Self, communicating back through the quantum field to myself and/or to those who might be where I have been).
Yet, after plenty of reflection, there is simply no way I could imagine my life today — had to I chosen to stay where I was.
…despite the overwhelming fear (at times)
…despite the lack of coherence (at times)
…despite the frustration and futility (at times
…despite the fact that I most definitely took the “Long Way Around”
That’s what we do here. We share parts of our journey so that HOPEFULLY you don’t have to take the looooonnnnnnnggggg way around!
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